nichtie

It's been awhile. srry. I haven't actually put on my computer for like weeks, don't think it's that important. summer is coming. soon. i hope. down the country it is twice as warm as here. more, it's sick. the same country, but such a big difference. I'm tired off this same old city, the same ppl, the same everything. I want to do like tina. just let everything go and do something completely outrageous. I'm thinking of her tonight. I wish i could be there with her. In LA. she's crazy. I like her. Doing exactly what she feels like. someday i'm gonna let go of all my 'musts'. soon. cuz I can't take it, being this bored. three days at

You get it? Don't don't? whatever ''Move around your bedroom cursing the naked sky You should be here tonight But you stay alone and cry'' Yeah, having a hard time. I'm not going to put it all out there, not that I think there's something wrong with doing so, it's just that I really don't want to remind myself how badly and hard this is. So I'm just going to say it, clean,honest and true: I don't want to show myself to the world right now. So tired of these sick ideals, just want to give everybody that encurage this culture to getting more and more extreme a big giant fcking middle finger. I would like a new start, don't we all? be

Been talking to everybody today. Really nice! also been ridiculous, doinf weird stuff at our music lessons. Hate when they make it even more hippie than it is doing the last things on my tattoos tonight. maybe something new will be done? ;D Going to do some workout now. really need. feeling quite down, a litte worried about my friend, a litte enoyed at D and a little tired of having a headache strip easy and have a pleasant tomorrow <3